This year as in other years I have so much to be thankful for. Yes there were times that I could barely make ends meet, but I survived. I recall selling CD cases to be able to feed my children. Recall that I had to shop solely at generic stores to be able to put groceries in the refrigerator. All this I did on my own (little to no help at all from their donors)! This year I am in a much better place than I have been in years. I am also a much happier person. I have a lot of people that are very supportive and very encouraging to me. I have friends that if I don't see them I wonder where they are. I have friends that I don't talk to everyday but they are still in my hearts and mind. I have friends that I have lost over the years and that is very sad to me, because I treasure and value friendship! I have too much to be thankful for not to enjoy this day today and every day of the year. I don't always get the time to say thank you Jah Jah, but Jah knows my heart! Jah knows my love! Jah knows my ability!
Today and every day give love to your family, friends, and those dear to your heart! Take time out of your day to reach out if you have not heard, seen, or looked for that person lately. We have the power to build each other up and to tear each other down. I choose to build! I have a long way to go and I am constantly changing for the better. I love each and every one of you!
How many have waken from a nightmarish filled dream wondering just what is going on in your head, mind, or your life to have warranted such an intrusion on your self-conscious mind?
I have been plagued with the weirdest of dreams that would leave me reaching out to people to ensure that they were okay!
I am a mother that does not believer in "sugar coating" issues and I teach my girls to always be aware of their surroundings. I pray that my daughter has the sense to be aware of where she is and who is around her when I am not around. We have to teach our kids to always be alert. Do they always listen to our guidance for them? No! But we continue to teach.
This came from my daughter being made aware of a pedophile in the near vicinity of our home, and her wild imagination causing her to wake up afraid of the dream that she just had. Would I change the fact that I told her this? No! We have to make our children aware of dangers that may harm them.
Growing up we saw people home walking the streets, we know the people that we would distinctly know were "crazy" or "para" and we would try to keep our distance. Something happened to those people, and when the family can no longer cope with the issues they turn their backs and the affected are homeless! The recent shooting in Tallahassee has many wondering WHY?
This was one of the first things I uttered when I awoke to see the news on the television.
Mr. Mays is being said to have been suffering from mental illness and we are now hearing of this only after this tragedy occurred. Students go to school to learn and never ever feel they have to try to protect themselves from bullets. How are so many people getting access to weapons that can harm our children. Even if a person may not have been shot, but witnessed the act it still plays a toll on them!
I handled a gun once and did not feel liberated using it but rather very fearful of the weapon.
The parents, students, and friends of FSU have to deal with something that will continuously haunt them for years. I pray that the affected are able to deal with the situation and the gentleman in critical condition pulls through.
Mr. Mays' family I am sure is left with so many questions wondering just what happened and why.
Mental illness is no joke, it affects more people in the family than you could imagine.
Have you ever felt betrayed?
Lately I have been feeling like I have been betrayed by none other than myself.
I give too much of myself, and I love too hard. I treat people the way I expect to be treated (I'm not perfect), and when I don't get that same treatment I'm ready to move on.
Call it old age, call it being wiser, but whatever you call it, I call it being smarter and protecting me at all costs!
Is that being selfish? Or is that just being real?? What do you think?
I wrote in the book in regards to this to a certain degree...
So, you are working on yourself to becoming a better you?
You strive daily to be a better you and to be an inspiration; and to be the ultimate compliment to your mate... providing that you are still single or in the market for a mate at all.
But, when does that "working on you" stop? Does it ever stop? And lastly why should it ever stop?
IMHO: The only way we can be the best that we can be is to continually evolve from what we were yesterday. The only way that we can better ourselves, is to constantly change things about us for the betterment.
I know that I have issues with so many things that it is actually insane when I think of all the "pet peeves" that I have.
Regardless of that, I try to keep a rein on my "issues", and I have gotten a lot better than I used to be.
I am far from being perfect, and I still have a lot of work to do on me still.
My profile picture on FB tells me I still have a lot of work to do on me... And work I will continue to do!
With that said what things do you feel you need to work on for yourself?
If you needed to seek professional help, would you be able to admit that you needed help and seek that help? Do you know where you would go to for that help?
There are places that you can start that you may not even know offered that type of help. Many employers now offer Employee Assistance Program (EAP), where you can get help needed for different items depending on your employer's offering, and one of those things would be to speak to a psychiatrist.
I would admit that I was once in need of those services and took full advantage of my 3 sessions offered to me. I still remember the phone call made to request services and the brief screening that took place; wanting to know if I was in danger of harming myself. While I was not in danger of harming myself, I was in danger of having a complete and total breakdown. Talking to someone that knew nothing about me personally that could listen to what I had to say from a removed POV; helped me to see that I was more important than the marriage I was trying to save at the time; or the job that was draining me mentally. I would go home and take out my anger on my kids verbally. I was angry all the time. I was ready to destruct!
But I was able to realize that I needed to get help, seek it, and take the information given to me. This is not something that most people like to talk about, but I hope and pray if anyone of you ever needs to get help that you would know where to get it from. Start with your employer, or the county to see what is available in your area.
Inspire. Motivate. Enrich. Bless. Cherish. Love.