You never know the time the place or the moment…
I think all the time now of how I will miss you so if you were to leave me. It plagues my mind now more than ever before since losing mommy. I asked myself years ago what I would miss most about you and I know what that is now. Whenever I would call you trying to trick you and using my disguised (not so disguised) voice you would always play along and chuckle like it’s no tomorrow. When I have had enough of my tom foolery and trying to trick you (which I have lost my touch in doing) I myself start to chuckle. I hear your laughter; it always starts of really slow and low, and then it continues to grow and goes into full grown deep laughter from your soul. Then at this point we are both on the phone laughing like two idiots. And I always say how did you know it was me? How could you tell? What gave me away? You always respond that you know it’s me. You always know it’s me. And we just laugh together. A laughter that fills us both. It makes me so happy to hear that laughter of yours. It fills my soul!
When you leave this earth, when you leave me I will miss most of all your laughter from your soul. Your laughter that makes me feel good to hear. To me that means that we shared a moment of happiness together. It makes me feel good to know that you are feeling comfortable enough with me to show me that part of you. I love you Papi! I tell you every time we speak. As mom always said give me my flowers when I’m alive, I’m trying to enjoy my flowers more whilst I’m still here on this earth.
Inspire. Motivate. Enrich. Bless. Cherish. Love.